Yoga teacher training is coming to an end and I feel a great sense of accomplishment followed by negative thoughts about my body...why?, this training was intense, I kept up with everyone and held my own, my fellow trainees respect the work I've done and are super supportive, I've been able to share yoga with friends and family and that fills me with joy, I am satisfied with the progress I've made, yet somewhere deep inside of me I still feel not good enough. Guess what, I am so sick of it...no more time wasted on these kinds of thoughts- hence the therapy:)
It's been helping, the therapy, I feel these shifts inside of me-they feel right and real. Yet still, there are so many negative messages in the world asking us to do crazy diets, dress a certain way, act a certain way, be like this or that so others will like us,- it is exhausting. The closer I get to loving and accepting myself the more I seem to see and feel these messages - it feels like a tug-of-war.
The good news is I feel like I'm winning!! I'm learning skillful tools and some of the underlying reasons I have the thoughts I do. It's work and that is what troubles me- not for myself-well a little for myself, but for my daughters, for your daughters, for all women and men. What are we doing, where do we get these ideas and how, oh how, are we going to defeat these worldly messages that are so damaging!!
One woman at a time I think...I could weep with joy as I watched each woman in this video see herself as others see her- it is time to start seeing how uniquely beautiful each one of us is and to see the beauty in each other.
Dear God,
Please let us see our own unique beauty,
Please let our daughters grow up knowing their worth,
Please help us to look at one another and see what you see,
Let the road to healing begin.
Amen
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